What-els is there to talk about? 
I should have said..
NOTHING.
A long, awkward one-minute silence.
That should have been my speech. To let them listen to their own selves what love is. For love is very subjective, someone cannot define it for others. HAHAHA. That’s very star girl of me, I know. Still, better than suffering from self-humiliation due to forced extraction of un-witty and rotten juices out of my brain.
PS. Please forgive me, Love for calling you as the corniest word ever. What do you expect from someone with a semi-tortured and unrequited love? I guess, I am corny for labeling you as the corniest.
You just emptied my half-glass love for you, dear.
Alas, I’m free from that “I have to look nice because I’m seeing him today” and then when I saw him, he didn’t even glanced at me. Le fuq. He’s not even Andrew Garfield to snob me like that! But anyway, I thought he was adorable for placing the weight of his arms on my shoulders. Like I was so conscious my shoulders might be so stiff he might feel the tension. Oh. Guys, don’t getit wrong, of course, he doesn’t know I am recording this on my mind. Even mummifying the moment in my memory. He probably don’t even remember this anymore. That means, it was nothing to him.
But then, my reasons for having this mad crush started to run out. Until..it felt like the feelings are too old to remember. Plus, he flirts like a girl, man! Or, I don’t know, maybe he is just being nice to those girls. I don’t know, maybe, I really don’t know him after all.
Goodbye machine-lover crush. Oh no. EX crush! And this is the last time I ever write about you!
Would it be so mortifying that at age close to two decades, you can’t still get over a puppy love? (I am actually wondering why they called it that way when they could have called it kitten love? LOL ) When everybody at your age cried and almost died for love? They’ve even gone too far than that, kissing and all those make-outs, like those in Hollywood movies.
Why gais, why? There’s so much love and giddy feeling in an innocent, lust-free love. All you ever wanted is to be with each other, talk and plant trees together without actually unbuttoning each others’ clothes.
Would it be so humiliating that even by just glancing at you, it felt like I’ve been stealing kisses from you. By just talking to you, it felt like I’ve been naked in front of you. Yeah baby, that’s how it felt like. And I can’t just cross over the line and do more than that. Let’s keep it conservative for now.
And yes, because I am so in love with Fillped. Thanks to @kebe for lending me awesome books.:D
